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David Raubach: I want to thank you for joining us on today’s episode of the Cancer Project podcast. We’re really privileged to have Peyton Washington here with us. She is the daughter of the first employee of the Oklahoma Proton Center, Jenny Washington. And Jenny was had to go through cancer not once but twice in her life. And unfortunately she passed away from a very aggressive brain tumor a few years ago. And Peyton went through that from the perspective of a daughter, and she was very gracious enough to agree to come and talk to us today about her mom and just what it’s like being a kid walking through a parent going through cancer. So Peyton, thank you for joining us today.

Peyton Washington: Thanks for having me. I’m excited.

David Raubach: So Peyton, you live here in Oklahoma. You were a nurse.

Peyton Washington: Yes.

David Raubach: So to talk a little bit about what you’re doing now, I think you said you work at Bethany Children’s Hospital.

Peyton Washington: Yes.

Peyton Washington: I started my nursing career as LPN at Bethany Children’s while doing my RN program and I loved it so much. I love the kids and what they stand for and everything there. So yes, I am coming on two years at Bethany Children’s.

David Raubach: Okay. When you were in let’s say high school, did you know what you wanted to do for a career? Were you thinking like I’m going to get into healthcare or was that when did you figure out that that’s what you wanted to do?

Peyton Washington: I think I’ve always wanted to be in healthcare because of my mom and how she helped people and how much she loved it. And I took an anatomy course in high school and that’s kind of what sparked my interest in nursing.

David Raubach: Okay.

Peyton Washington: And then obviously seeing my mom in the hospital and the nurses that cared for her kind of really pushed me to it’s like this is what I want to do.

David Raubach: Yeah. Well, that’s amazing. So then you have a son. So tell us about your son.

Peyton Washington: Weston is five. He loves baseball and probably loves OU football more than all of us.

David Raubach: Okay.

Peyton Washington: We grew up going to home games with our parents since we were, you know, 2, three years old.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: So, we passed that down to him and he’s a big OU football guy and

David Raubach: is he, has he been to games?

Peyton Washington: Yes.

David Raubach: Okay. He’s

Peyton Washington: I think he went to his first game when he was two.

David Raubach: Oh, did he really? Okay.

Peyton Washington: So he got hooked from the start and he loves OU football. He’s going to be in kindergarten and just a fun guy.

David Raubach: Great person. So he’s going to kindergarten.

Peyton Washington: Yes.

David Raubach: Are you like, “Oh my gosh, I have a kindergartener.”

Peyton Washington: Yes. It’s, you know, it’s public school now.

David Raubach: Okay.

Peyton Washington: So that’s a big change, but I’m excited for him, but it’s crazy to get to this point and watch how much he’s grown.

David Raubach: Yeah.

David Raubach: That’s Yeah, that’s amazing. He’s super cute.

Peyton Washington: Thank you.

David Raubach: You guys love, I know you guys love going out to the lake, too. It seems like he’s like a water kid.

Peyton Washington: Oh, yeah, for sure.

David Raubach: So, and then tell us about your family. You have three younger siblings.

Peyton Washington: I do. I’m the oldest of four.

David Raubach: Yep.

Peyton Washington: My brother is Thomas. He’s 23. He is in the oil field doing his starting his career out there. The next one is Maggie. She just turned 22.

David Raubach: Okay.

Peyton Washington: So, we just celebrated her birthday this past week. She just graduated from Arkansas.

David Raubach: Okay.

Peyton Washington: And she’s going to be a third grade teacher this coming school year. And Olivia is the youngest. She is 20 and she is a she’s going to start her junior year at OU.

David Raubach: Okay.

Peyton Washington: So I think she wants to do public relations.

David Raubach: Okay.

Peyton Washington: So yeah, she’s doing very well in college.

David Raubach: What, so give me one word to describe each of your siblings. So let’s start with Thomas.

Peyton Washington: Thomas.

David Raubach: I would say, and it can be a phrase, too. I won’t hold you to one word.

Peyton Washington: Thomas is simple.

David Raubach: Simple. Okay. She’s very simple. Yeah.

Peyton Washington: Maggie, I’m going use a phrase for her. She’s down to earth.

David Raubach: Okay. Yeah.

Peyton Washington: And Olivia, the first thing that comes to mind is spontaneous.

David Raubach: Okay. Yeah, I could see that. And so, then what do you think they would say about you?

Peyton Washington: They would say h Well, I’m the oldest and so

David Raubach: Okay. Oh gosh, that’s hard.

Peyton Washington: Probably independent.

David Raubach: Okay. Yeah. Yeah, that’s a good one. Yeah, that’s a good trait. Independent.

Peyton Washington: Yeah.

David Raubach: Were you like a caretaker for them growing up or were you

Peyton Washington: I would say yes.

David Raubach: Yeah. Yeah.

Peyton Washington: I watched them a lot and I felt like I was a motherly figure to them. So

David Raubach: Yeah. Yeah, that’s great.

David Raubach: So, let’s talk about Jenny. Let’s talk about your mom. So, I just to lay a little bit of groundwork. So, I started working at the Proton Center in 2010. And she was obviously here. She was a dosimetrist at the time. I’m trying to think. So, 2010. I’ve got to do some quick math. How old would you have been?

Peyton Washington: I would have been 11.

David Raubach: 11. Okay. So, you were 11. And she started here in 200, I guess the center opened in 2009, right?

Peyton Washington: Yeah.

David Raubach: So, and she was employee number one here.

Peyton Washington: That’s a good fact to know. I didn’t know that.

David Raubach: Yeah, she was the first employee that got hired. And then, yeah, her and then Nikki White, if you remember Nikki, I think she was employee number two. But, so she was a dosimetrist and then, she eventually became director of operations and then VP of operations. But then even before that, she had been a radiation therapist. So that was back before she was a dosimetrist. So, she’s actually treating patients.

Peyton Washington: Yeah.

David Raubach: What did you like growing up, what were you kind of aware of in terms of her job and what she did on a day-to-day basis?

Peyton Washington: It was kind of like I knew she was treating cancer patients. I didn’t know at the time. I didn’t know exactly what that consisted of, but I knew she dealt with radiation and she mapped out the dosage to treat that cancer. So yeah, that’s as a kid, that’s kind of what I knew my mom as.

David Raubach: Yeah. Well, and then as you get older, you’re in high school, you’re thinking, maybe I want to go into healthcare. Did it kind of start to, did you become more aware of like what she was doing?

Peyton Washington: Yeah, I did.

David Raubach: Or where she was working?

Peyton Washington: Yes, she brought us to the Proton Center several times to, you know, do tours and show us exactly, you know, the machines and what everyone used on a day-to-day basis. So, the older I got, the more I definitely understood like what her job role was.

David Raubach: Yeah. Did she ever talk about why she went into the field of cancer?

Peyton Washington: She did. So, she had a benign tumor as a young girl. I want to say she was eight or 10.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: and she got radiation treatment for that. And I think that’s what sparked her interest into doing her career.

David Raubach: Yeah. Was what she went through as a little girl and ultimately just helping people.

Peyton Washington: Yeah.

David Raubach: So your mom, I think that’s a good way to describe your mom, that she was really about helping people. So, I mean, build on that or how would you maybe how would you describe your mom to somebody else who asked? What was what was your mom? What was Jenny like?

Peyton Washington: Jenny was the sweetest person ever. Never held a grudge, patient, slow to anger. I mean, just overall like exactly the kind of mom and role model that you want to look up to.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: very chill and you know just kind of goes with the flow and loves everyone and kindness to everyone.

David Raubach: What are some fun things that you remember doing with her? Cuz she liked to have a good time too.

Peyton Washington: Yeah, she did.

David Raubach: So, what are some fun things that you remember doing with her maybe in growing up or in high school?

Peyton Washington: Jenny loved to shop.

David Raubach: Okay.

Peyton Washington: So, you know, she would work all week and on the weekends she would go shopping and we would get our nails done together and just simple things like that. And then for family vacations, Lake, we love going to the lake and Hot Springs, Arkansas was like our place growing up. That’s where her grandparents raised her as a little girl. So, any place by the water she loved to be and she loved to shop and travel.

David Raubach: Travel?

Peyton Washington: Yeah. Yes.

David Raubach: You guys like to travel?

Peyton Washington: Yes.

David Raubach: What, is there a trip that stands out to you that you remember? Like a vacation that you guys took or

Peyton Washington: we all went to our first beach trip together in Orange Beach. I want to say that was 2015, 2016.

David Raubach: Okay.

Peyton Washington: So that was a trip that you know we all our kids went to the beach for the first time and it was a really good trip. I think we went back a couple more times after that.

David Raubach: Did you? Okay. But yeah.

David Raubach: What did you remember about her as a mom? Like you’re a mom now. What are some things that you take from your mom that you apply being a mom now?

Peyton Washington: Patience.

David Raubach: Okay.

Peyton Washington: Like I said, slow to anger. She kind of let me grow up as my own person and kind of let me figure things out, but always showed me love and compassion and understanding.

Peyton Washington: And one thing is, just don’t do to others what you wouldn’t want done to yourself. That’s kind of a big thing that she stood for.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: Just treat everyone how you would want to be treated. And even if you know they treat you poorly, still show them love and compassion.

David Raubach: Yeah. And I think I mean, you could definitely say that about Jenny for sure.

David Raubach: So, what was she like as a grandma?

Peyton Washington: Oh my gosh. I think that was her favorite role. Being a nana was her favorite role.

Peyton Washington: I remember telling her when I found out I was pregnant. She I wasn’t really scared to tell her.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: Cuz I knew she would be understanding, but I was still kind of, you know, nervous. But she was so excited. She was And she told me, she actually told me she had a dream.

David Raubach: Really?

Peyton Washington: before I told her, she had a dream that I was pregnant.

David Raubach: Oh wow.

Peyton Washington: So that was really crazy to hear, but she was super excited. She loves Weston and made her own nursery in her house for him.

David Raubach: So, well, I mean, I remember when she told us up at the Proton Center that she was going to be a grandma, she was very excited.

Peyton Washington: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: I think you guys threw her a baby shower.

David Raubach: We did. We threw her a baby shower and we knew that she was going to be extremely involved with Weston and with you.

Peyton Washington: She was

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: She was very

David Raubach: Yeah, she just was excited to play that role for sure.

Peyton Washington: Yes.

David Raubach: Are there, is there something that she liked to do with Weston that you remember? Like what did you, what were, what’s something that was kind of like this was like what her and Weston did together?

Peyton Washington: I think she just enjoyed me dropping him off at her house and she kind of took over from there.

Peyton Washington: She had a pool in her backyard, so they always swam.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: Yeah, I think just really, hey, can you drop Weston off for the weekend? Like we’d love to have him. So just simply him being there is all she really wanted.

David Raubach: No, it really was. It was fun to see because a lot of people, you know, they raise kids and they’re, you know, the kids start to get out of the house and they start to get older and they’re like, I want my weekends to myself or I want to go travel and I don’t have to worry about kids. But she was really like, you know what? I want to spend time doing hanging out with Weston.

Peyton Washington: Absolutely.

David Raubach: So, she definitely made a point to that for sure.

Peyton Washington: Yes, she did.

David Raubach: So, do you remember because there was a and I want to brag on Jenny a little bit, but there was a point where there was a transition with the Proton Center kind of went through some tough things and the center closed, actually closed down for a period of time and then we had to reopen. Were you aware much of what was going on then or did your mom ever talk about like, hey, this works really hard right now or anything like that?

Peyton Washington: I don’t remember a whole lot about that. I do remember just kind of snippets of a lot of stress.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: And she was here for longer periods of time, late nights. But yeah, it’s she put a lot of energy into her job and her career. So, I do remember a little bit, but yeah, ultimately it was just stress, but I mean, she never really brought it home, you know.

David Raubach: Well, it’s interesting that you would say that because that describes a little bit of her persona at work in the sense that at this point, so this was 2018. The center was going through some financial challenges. It looked like it might shut down or maybe there was going to be a buyer or maybe there wasn’t going to be a buyer. And she was the vice president of operations at that point and the president of the center actually lived in Tennessee. And so she really was the person on the ground who was running the day-to-day here.

David Raubach: And having to deal with some of the financial challenges and having to deal with these buyers that were potentially coming in. And so she was absorbing a lot of stress, but then the center still had to keep treating patients. So you kind of had to separate like what’s happening behind the scenes with the front end and not let the clinical staff or the patients see some of that stress behind the scenes. So yeah, I mean her ability to kind of separate the two and it sounds like she did that a little bit with you guys where it’s like I’m not going to bring all this stress home and let it impact life at the house.

Peyton Washington: Absolutely.

David Raubach: Yeah, that’s Yeah, that’s amazing.

David Raubach: So and you have an Oklahoma Proton Center shirt on.

Peyton Washington: I do.

David Raubach: You said you went through the closet and tracked that down.

Peyton Washington: She has a lot of Proton Center shirts. So yeah.

David Raubach: And you still live at her house?

Peyton Washington: I do.

David Raubach: Yeah. Yeah. is that how has that been being there the last couple years?

Peyton Washington: I think overall it’s been comforting.

David Raubach: Yeah, more than anything.

Peyton Washington: It’s tough. It’s a lot of house to upkeep and but it’s ultimately been like my home. Like we were there we’ve been there for 14 years.

David Raubach: Okay.

Peyton Washington: And a lot of memories there and

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: Weston’s kind of grown up there.

David Raubach: Yeah. Yes. So comforting but also hard.

Peyton Washington: Yeah. A lot of memories.

David Raubach: Yeah. What, so then let’s talk a little bit about just your mom getting diagnosed with cancer. What do you remember about those moments in time?

Peyton Washington: I remember leading up to the first ER trip, I want to say a month or two is kind of when me and my sister really started noticing like subtle changes in her, her memory, her focus, kind of her attitude. She was very like flat effect, like didn’t really show a lot of emotion. you know, me and Weston would come over for dinner and it was like she wasn’t really happy to see us, you know, just kind of just very different from her usual, right? You know, cheerful spirit. And then she started falling at home. My sis, my youngest sister was living there at the time. And I remember Olivia would text me and be like, “Mom just fell.”

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: You know, in the laundry room and hurt herself. Like what’s going on with her? So just little things here and there that we started noticing. And then I remember someone from her work reached out to me and said, “Hey, I’m really worried about your mom. Someone had to drive her home today cuz she couldn’t drive and we’re just really worried about her, you know.” And so I let her husband know. I let Tony know. And Tony kind of told me, you know, I’ve been noticing changes, too. she’s not the same person, she’s acting weird, you know, all these things. And so I think what ultimately we’ve been kind of keeping an eye on her for a few days, you know, and I think what ultimately made Tony take her to the ER was she was vomiting just

David Raubach: Okay. Wow.

Peyton Washington: All night, all morning vomiting. So they went to the ER right by our house and I think they did a CT and that’s when they discovered the tumor in her brain.

David Raubach: Right.

Peyton Washington: And so that was just a shock to all of us. She was at St. Anthony’s, one of the smaller hospitals.

Peyton Washington: And they transferred her to the downtown location and kind of did more in-depth tests and scans and stuff. And seeing that scan on the computer was like insane.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: To wrap your head around like what is that?

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: So yeah.

David Raubach: So you saw the scan on the computer?

Peyton Washington: Yeah.

David Raubach: Did you, I mean, what were you thinking at that point in time? I mean, how were you processing what you were seeing?

Peyton Washington: It was just unbelievable. It was like what is this? You know, honestly, the first thing that came to my mind was not cancer. A tumor, yes, but cancerous, not really, right? It was just like very of like a foreign object that I’m looking at, you know. It was a big tumor. It was like the size of a golf ball.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: So, it was no words really.

David Raubach: Yeah.

David Raubach: And so, then what happens from that point? So they’ve you’ve done a CT scan, she’s having some symptoms. There’s obviously this tumor. What happens after that?

Peyton Washington: So I think she was talking to some doctors at St. Anthony’s and you know she knows so many physicians from here and right she was in contact with a lot of physicians and ultimately they recommended her to go to OU to get treated. They knew a really good neurosurgeon there. I forget his name, but ultimately she transferred to OU to have surgery and her surgery was within five days of the ER visit, the scans, and then surgery five days later, right? So that was when our hope started, you know, lighting up. Like, she knows so many amazing people and providers and stuff that can get her into the right place. We just felt like we were in good hands there.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: At OU. And then, had her surgery and kind of just carried on from there.

David Raubach: Yeah.

David Raubach: So, I remember going to visit her right before the surgery at OU because you’re right, this all happened really fast, right? And we, and somebody had called you from work, so we had kind of been noticing some physical changes at work like it didn’t, she just didn’t seem like herself, right? And then we had heard about, I think we had heard that maybe she had fallen. And so the symptoms came on really fast, too. And they got worse really fast. And so then you kind of have this very rushed scenario where she gets imaging, she’s at the hospital, and I, like I said, I remember going to see her. I can’t remember if it was the day before or two days before, but it was right before the surgery and she was definitely like I think it was like she could hardly move her left arm and her like she was basically couldn’t walk at that point like very symptomatic because of the pressure from the tumor in her brain.

David Raubach: And I don’t remember is if she was fully aware of the extent of what was happening like because it was all kind of just happening so fast and she was on a lot of medication. But they did the surgery. She comes out of surgery and fortunately the surgery relieved a lot of the symptoms pretty quick like she got movement back in her after a few days, got movement back in her on her left side and some of the other things. But what do you kind of remember about the days, the few days after because you were up there seeing her?

Peyton Washington: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: She had actually went home that same day. So the surgery, she went home the same day.

David Raubach: Okay.

Peyton Washington: And like you said, it was immediate relief. She got her feeling back. It was her left side that started going numb.

Peyton Washington: Just a night and day difference from that tumor being removed and she felt better than she has in months.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: I remember before the ER visit, I kind of noticed, you know, the changes and I had asked her, I was like, “Mom, are you okay?”

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: I was thinking like stroke or something, right? Just because of her slurring and her left side was kind of droopy.

Peyton Washington: And I remember her telling me like, “I would know if something’s wrong with me.”

Peyton Washington: That just that phrase just stands out to me because like how do you know that you have glioblastoma?

David Raubach: Right.

Peyton Washington: So yeah, but after surgery, immediate relief.

David Raubach: Yeah.

David Raubach: At what point did you become aware of the severity of the tumor itself?

Peyton Washington: So I remember after the surgery it had got sent off to be biopsied.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: And they didn’t really know if it, like, what kind of tumor it was. I want to say a few days later, she had called all his us kids over and told us that it was cancer and it still didn’t really hit us.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: We still didn’t really understand and we just kind of like had hope because you know she worked in this cancer center and she knew all about radiation and chemo and like she’s been through this before.

Peyton Washington: So we were very hopeful that like she’s gonna beat this and glioblastoma at the time like none of us understood how impactful and deadly it was.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: So, I remember one of her really good friends up here, Dena, they before they got the results of the biopsy back, they looked at the scans and I remember Dena was actually the one who told me this that they looked at the scan and they were both dosimetrists by training and so they had looked at literally thousands of scans and images

Peyton Washington: And they said, Dena said, we both knew when we looked at it what it was, like we didn’t have to wait to get the results of the biopsy back.

David Raubach: And so that’s already something that she’s having to process. What, so, she tells you guys that she’s got cancer and then she finds out that it’s glioblastoma. when did it kind of, or how did it kind of become real just how serious that particular type of cancer is?

Peyton Washington: I tried my best not to research it a lot at the time and when I did I it was just like a sunken feeling like this you know prognosis is 15 months from diagnosis to survival and it was just a lot of like yes I was researching it and looking it up but at the same time I was just trying to find hope and faith that like she will get better treatment and do these trials and you know fight this off. So it was a lot of denial but also like you said she knew in that moment before even getting the results back she kind of knew.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: But she was just really good about staying like hopeful that maybe there’s a trial out there that will prolong my life.

David Raubach: Yeah.

David Raubach: Did the two of you have any conversations about what she was about to go through or like how much were you guys like, you know what, let’s just not talk about this.

Peyton Washington: Mhm.

David Raubach: Versus how much did you sit down and just have a one-on-one conversation with your mom and get real about the whole thing?

Peyton Washington: Yeah, there weren’t a whole lot of those moments.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: I remember a few distinct ones, but you know, she did treatment and she did these trials for from April to January.

David Raubach: Mhm.

Peyton Washington: And so a lot of that was just fighting and hoping and like we’re going to get through this.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: And then, you know, Christmas that year, she had a couple days after Christmas, she had a really dramatic seizure that kind of brought that numbness back to her left side.

Peyton Washington: And from January to when she passed is kind of when everything hit.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: Like this is really taking over. And as much as she wants to fight and prolong it and do all these treatments, like it’s at this point it’s taking over.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: And she did fight for a while after that, after like that big seizure. She was still doing, I think her trial was over with, it was the OKN 007 trial.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: So you still remember the letters and my sister had to remind me but

David Raubach: Yeah. I know it was some kind of trial.

Peyton Washington: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: And then after that she was taking Avastin.

David Raubach: Okay.

Peyton Washington: Y but yeah she just fought as long as she could and like I said just that’s what we were hoping, like clinging on to. You know she would always keep give us updates and like I’m going to treatment and this is what’s happening. You know they showed no new growth on the tumor on my scans today.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: So just little hopeful updates.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: up until that one seizure that kind of is when everything started going downhill.

David Raubach: Yeah.

David Raubach: What was the relationship like with your siblings watching your mom go through this?

Peyton Washington: We were all kind of in survival mode and it was kind of hard to talk about it just us, you know, cuz our main priority was just making sure mom was okay, you know.

Peyton Washington: My sister Maggie was at college.

Peyton Washington: She came down as much as she could and spent the summer with us before she started her sophomore year, I believe.

Peyton Washington: But it was just a lot of like survival mode.

David Raubach: Yeah. Really?

Peyton Washington: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: And just making sure we spend as much time and make memories as we can.

David Raubach: Yeah.

David Raubach: So talk a little bit about that because one thing I do remember, you know, she gets this diagnosis and we work at a cancer center so everybody understood very early on the severity of her diagnosis. And of course everybody has a different opinion about how you’re supposed to respond. And certainly, I mean, from a treatment standpoint she did everything, like she had, like you said, she had access to every possible resource. She explored all the clinical trials. She went and talked to doctors at Mayo Clinic. She had an incredible team doing everything they possibly could.

Peyton Washington: Yeah.

David Raubach: So that’s one side. That’s the clinical side. But then there’s the like just living life side.

Peyton Washington: Mhm.

David Raubach: And she, I remember she stayed up here working for a while and I remember having a conversation with her and I was like, “Well, you know what? You don’t have to keep coming up here like nobody’s going to hold it against you if you say I’m going to go do other stuff like regardless of what the ultimate outcome ends up being.” But she was so passionate about the people that worked up here and she was so passionate about the patients that got treated here.

Peyton Washington: Yeah.

David Raubach: That for her it was like, well, if I only have a little bit of time left, like this is one of the ways that I want to pour myself out. Like I want to continue to invest in my co-workers, people that I’ve worked with for a long time and the patients that are coming in here and do everything I can to help them. So she kept coming up here to work and doing everything and like just pouring herself into the job and it was really it really was amazing to see her do that.

David Raubach: And then there was a point where it really, like, it seemed like maybe the treatments weren’t going to work the way that everybody hoped and there really was a very finite amount of time left and she did say okay well now maybe there’s a few things on the bucket list that I’m going to go do and some of it, a lot of it, was involved you guys. So, yeah. What are some of the things that you remember over those last maybe six months that you guys did together that are just core memories that are going to stick with you the rest of your life?

Peyton Washington: Well, one trip she did take with her sisters to New York City. She went and saw Neil Diamond, like a musical or something. And everyone knows that knows Jenny knows she loves Neil Diamond. So, that was on her bucket list. She went with her sisters.

Peyton Washington: And then we all took a family trip to Colorado Springs. That was one place she loved. And we got to spend quality time together there. But it was such a short amount of time to do all the things that she wanted to do.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: But I’m confident that she did get, you know, quality time with us.

Peyton Washington: And I think that’s what she wanted most was just more time with her family, you know. So the little trips we took here and there just together was like just the cherry on top.

David Raubach: Yeah. Yeah, no, that’s amazing.

David Raubach: So then the last kind of month or two, as much as you feel comfortable, just talk about the reality of what that was like for you and the family. And I say that not to necessarily bring up really hard memories, but there may be somebody listening today that’s kind of thinking ahead or prepping, right? They have a family member that got diagnosed with this. And then how did you kind of, just what was it like and how did you just get through those la, that last month or two?

Peyton Washington: Wow.

Peyton Washington: I remember the last month is when it got really bad. She was, I mean she had been bedbound since probably March to June. She had been bed bound and just numb on that left side. And I remember she had had another seizure like in May and Maggie was home for the summer and I’m really glad Maggie was there cuz we all took her to the hospital.

Peyton Washington: We took her back to OU cuz you know there’s not much we can really do at home. We didn’t have home health at the time or hospice or anything like that. So that last trip to the hospital and they told us like I think it’s time for hospice, like it’s just kind of taken over at this point. But I mean, at the time it was like it still didn’t click, you know? It was still like, what do you mean like hospice and she has a DNR bracelet and you know, she’s getting, I think a nurse was coming two or three times a week. Giving her comfort meds and stuff and I think she had stopped like communicating.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: The last week.

Peyton Washington: But I mean each day she just got weaker and weaker. She would sleep longer and at this point she, you know, had a foley and just basically 100% bed bound.

Peyton Washington: So that was, it was really hard to accept and looking back it’s, I try not to regret our mom’s care and what we did for her cuz I know we were all doing our best and what we knew at the time.

Peyton Washington: But there are a lot of moments where I just wish I could go back and make her more comfortable or, you know, do a little more for her because it was just a really hard time for

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: all of us kids.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: I was still in nursing school, Olivia was a senior, you know, Maggie was still in college.

Peyton Washington: And it was just a lot of different whatifs.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: Looking back, but I know at the time we did spend a lot of time with her in her room and by her side and, you know, giving her massages and playing her favorite music and of course taking Weston to visit her and

David Raubach: Yeah. Yeah.

Peyton Washington: Yeah. So just being with her.

David Raubach: Yeah. There was a point too where we made a decision here at the Proton Center that we were going to create an award in her honor. Honestly, it’s one of those things that we probably should have done earlier than we did. So we created the Jenny Washington Award and the intent and purpose of the award was to honor an employee who personified and exemplified her spirit, her attitude, her courage, her compassion, everything that made her a special person and everything that she did to kind of hold the team together through some really tough times here at the Proton Center. And so she got the first award. And you were gracious enough to be on and help accept that award. Do you remember doing that call?

Peyton Washington: I do. Yeah, I do. It was on my phone. It was on the team’s app.

Peyton Washington: And I’m grateful that you guys, you know, brought that all together cuz she was aware and awake for that.

Peyton Washington: And I think she knew those were the last days.

Peyton Washington: So, she wasn’t very communicative, but she definitely knew.

Peyton Washington: She opened her eyes and I think she knew 1,000% that you guys, how much you guys loved her, and in return she loved the Proton Center.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: So she was amazing person.

David Raubach: So then talk about just the memories that were shared at the funeral. That was at the country club I think. Were you working at the country club there at the time? And I thought it was amazing because it was really hot. It was in the summer in Oklahoma and there were so many people that came out, there was, even though it was really hot, and there were people from multiple periods of time in her life. So what did you just remember about that experience of getting together and seeing all these people come out to honor your mom?

Peyton Washington: I still remember it as one of the best days ever. It was such a perfect day.

Peyton Washington: it got thrown together really quickly, but I think it turned out amazing.

David Raubach: You had to do a lot of the help planning it.

Peyton Washington: Yeah. Yeah. And I was lucky enough to be working there at the time.

Peyton Washington: Yeah. And so we got that big old ballroom and all the food and flowers and it was just seeing all those people show up for her.

Peyton Washington: It really just put into perspective. Like I remember someone telling me there were cars lined down the street like miles.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: Because of how many people showed up and as much as you know there weren’t even enough seats

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: for everyone, was standing up. There’s so many people.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: People were even inside during the service cuz there was nowhere to be. But it was a really special day.

Peyton Washington: And I know she wanted a celebration of life rather than your typical memorial service. And I think that’s exactly what it was. It was celebrating Jenny and what kind of person she was.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: And just so much love around.

David Raubach: Are there days now, you know, it’s been a little bit of a period of time, but are there days now where things kind of hit differently, whether it’s a happy memory or something sad, like how are you, how do you kind of process everything now, a couple years later?

Peyton Washington: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: I think just knowing what she instilled in us kids, like we’re all off to college and starting careers and very successful and as much as you know we want her here seeing that, just knowing that you know she raised us and you know instilled in us so much grit and grace.

Peyton Washington: it is hard with without her.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: Watching these moments, but just knowing that she’s painfree and in a better place is ultimately what brings peace to us that she’s somewhere very proud and she’s still giving us all the signs and yeah, everything makes us think of her and

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: You know, so you can still feel that presence.

David Raubach: Absolutely.

David Raubach: Was it a little bit surreal walking back into the Proton Center today?

Peyton Washington: It was. Yeah, it was. I felt her immediately.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: You know, she, I was up only up here a handful of times through her career cuz we lived south OKC.

Peyton Washington: So, it’s kind of a trip up here, but yeah, I immediately felt her presence and it just felt safe.

Peyton Washington: It felt like, you know, she’s been here hundreds of times.

David Raubach: Yeah.

Peyton Washington: you know, a lot of memories and miracles happened here.

Peyton Washington: So, yeah, it feels good to be back in here.

David Raubach: I have two more questions for you.

Peyton Washington: Okay.

David Raubach: So one, what advice would you have for somebody else that’s in your situation where they have a parent, and especially a parent, I mean, Jenny was not that old when she got a terminal brain tumor. What advice would you have for a kid having to go through that like what you had to go through?

Peyton Washington: I would say just everything you want to ask your parent about their life or their memories, ask them now.

Peyton Washington: There’s a lot of stuff I wish I would have asked my mom and heard from her personally.

Peyton Washington: And spend as much time as you can with them. I mean friends can wait, hangouts can wait, maybe not work, but as much time as you can be with them, be with them and show so much love and tell them how much you love them.

David Raubach: So I asked you at the beginning to use one word to describe your siblings and then one word that they would use to describe you. What is one word or phrase that you would use to describe your mom?

Peyton Washington: My mom.

David Raubach: And you don’t have to limit it to one word if you don’t.

Peyton Washington: Okay.

Peyton Washington: The first word that comes to mind is graceful.

David Raubach: Yeah, graceful.

Peyton Washington: Yeah.

David Raubach: Yeah, that’s a perfect word. Yeah, I love it. Thank you so much, Peyton. I know this wasn’t easy and I really appreciate you coming to honor your mom like this and just share a little bit about your experience. I know it’s going to help somebody else who’s listening today having to go through what you had to go through a couple years ago.

Peyton Washington: Yeah. Thank you for having me.

David Raubach: Yeah.

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